i have lots of messages to respond to, and let me just say here that i never cease to be overwhelmed by how much you guys seem to care about me. i hope you understand, i don’t feel much like responding to people right now, but maybe i will over the weekend.
this message is different, though. this message needs to be addressed immediately.
cyclone5000 said:well i relate to this feeling a lot even if I’m not a writer per say. I don’t really have advice, but think about why you started in the first place. If it no longer accomplishes that, then dont feel obligated to continue. Force is not the answer.
pretty much that ^
i don’t derive any enjoyment out of it anymore. i just feel like i’m forcing myself to do it, and i keep writing shit. it’s a very destructive hobby for me now.
so just fyi here, i’ve moved out and am starting shitty work tomorrow (i need to be sleeping god). it’s a full time job so i won’t be around as much anymore. it’ll destroy my time, my freedom, and most definitely my writing muse — not like i’ve been doing much with that anyway.
but my muse was destroyed a long time ago. i’ve been teetering on the fence about my writing anyway, so maybe it’s for the better.
but yeah. gotta make money, because i’m pathetically poor.